In the early 60’s my favorite relative mentioned that he sometimes wanted to kill himself. I couldn’t believe it! He was great looking, smart, funny, and he had a good summer job on the line at Ford in Detroit. I didn’t understand what he was getting at, but looking back, it’s pretty obvious. He was Catholic and gay, and the early sixties weren’t the greatest time to be gay in the mid-west.
My relative got through high school and didn’t kill himself, fortunately for everyone who knew him. He graduated with honors from a world class university and moved out to the coast as fast as he could.
Grand Rapids Public Library has many resources to learn about being the type of person you are, and dealing with what goes with it.
There are LGBT books on historical, legal, relationship, religious, bullying, and just about any other aspect you could think of. Dan Savage posted a video with his partner on youtube called “It Gets Better” . GRPL even has a teen wiki for LGBT-–
And it’s true– things usually get better. My cousin met a wonderful man in LA, and they’ve been together for 37 years, even got married. He’s had a wonderful career, a full life, many friends. Only once I heard him comment on one of his old nemesis’– it was something like: “Well, I heard how so-and-so is doing. He finally got out of jail, and he’s back with his sister. He wouldn’t play with me in junior high, and now he’s lost his hair! ”
Living your own true life is the best revenge!